Maven shares an intensely personal faith journey out of Mormonism in a compelling video interview. She describes how experiences with excessive guilt and doubt led her to question core LDS teachings. Attending church schools surfaced further questions on race, gender roles, and the nature of eternity.

Seeking assistance when struggling financially, she was shamed by LDS welfare services, contrasting sharply with the non-judgment she found at a secular agency. Her patriarchal blessing brought little comfort as she realized she was asexual in a church focused on marriage and family. Feeling broken, lost and alone, the foundations of her once sturdy faith began to crack.

The final straw was an essay disavowing past racism that apologized for everything while changing nothing. In that moment her belief structure collapsed as she recognized it had been built on sand. The loss was deeply felt, but with it came liberation. Reflecting on women like Helen Mar Kimball who were coerced by early leaders, Maven committed to amplifying feminine voices and seeking truth. Shedding organized religion, she blossomed into her own woman with a driving purpose - to dance, to question, to understand, and to share her journey so that others might find validation in their own.

Part 1:    • Maven's Mormon Story - Pt. 1 | Ep. 1596  

Show Notes:
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https://asexual.org

Chapters:
00:00:00 Introduction
00:02:02 Scrupulosity
00:10:30 Questions regarding the gospel
00:23:51 Jerusalem Center
00:36:22 BYU Hawaii
00:38:55 Out in the world - Rough start
00:43:50 Seeking help from Bishop’s warehouse
00:47:30 Shaming when asking for help
00:55:12 Tabitha’s Way - no shaming for asking for help - contrast to LDS welfare
01:00:18 Tithing and choosing not to pay
01:02:20 Searching for a career
01:03:40 Being single within the church
01:10:00 Enjoying being single too much
01:11:43 If you’re hanging out you’re not dating
01:17:30 Patriarchal Blessing
01:19:20 Asexuality
01:25:50 Girlfriend talk about sex and sexual feelings - “I am broken.”
01:30:00 Mixed orientation marriages as solution for asexuality
01:33:00 Does this bother me?
01:40:00 What is wrong with me?
01:44:28 Why does my eternity have to do with someone else and why do they have dominion over my body?
01:46:25 David Archeletta and asexuality
01:54:00 The unraveling of Maven’s faith begins
01:59:30 Race and the Priesthood and the non-apology
02:02:24 The fault of feelings
02:03:40 Realizing I am atheist
02:04:45 It wasn’t a rock, it was built on sand!
02:07:00 Feeling the loss of it.
02:16:30 The one thing that men can’t do is what they try to control us with
02:18:30 Maven reflecting on Helen Mar Kimball
02:20:00 Deconstruction of my faith
02:21:00 “Listen to the women”
02:25:35 Death of a family member
02:28:00 If she wasn’t Mormon…would she still be here?
02:32:00 No one misses the baby
02:37:00 Making changes for the better
02:40:43 Becoming Maven
02:43:25 We want to know why.
02:45:12 Dancing Maven

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